Hi there,

Business course, week four.

Having given myself a hard time the previous week for walking out of the session, I turned up to Newcastle City Library disheartened by recent events.

From other sources I was being told that I needed to look for jobs and put Self Employment on the back burner for a while.
You need to engage with people more as I was in danger of becoming more reclusive, I was being told.
Valid points, but I couldn't help feeling abandoned on the road to Damascus.

Anyway, back to the Library, signed in, picked a table and got settled alongside Chimp and his gregarious friend with the tablet.
Looking up I saw the dreaded video camera being pointed at someone on the stage in mid 'Elevator pitch!'

You mean I'd walked out last week, admittedly tired, and still had to face trial by video? Yep!
But I've got no script, no preparation, it would be all spontaneous, like.

That was probably what saved me, despite trying to look away when it was my turn, I approached the stage like others before me with a gap between my ears and a mouth ready to process whatever came out of it. Didn't really have time to be self conscious, despite knowing that body language, intonation and projection were part of a good presentation...I said....what I said.

On reflection, it was a poor presentation..... but I did it, I bloody did it! Real joined up words n'all.

I keep telling myself this now, as if its the precursor to some major life changing event, when actually I felt no passion or enthusiasm getting up and little or no emotion heading back to my seat.

I have one, if not two extractions at my Dentists next week which nobody looks forward to, but whatever the circumstances, I faced up to a challenge (eventually) this week and can look myself in the mirror again. That's got to be worth one or two discarded teeth, hasn't it?